Its really sad that even logging into Second Life to clean up affairs makes me so sick to my stomach that I can only bear to stay in a few minutes at a time. Its just. I feel the atmosphere, the fascism in the air. Its not from the people but from the oppression of the Lab itself. The rules of the world changed so much from where it was. And It continues to get worse and worse.
I don’t know if anyone is reading anymore, if anyone cares what I have to say. But I ‘m writing this for myself really. And one day if I keep doing it, someone may be able to say, “She knew. She Spoke Out. She Acted.”
The real question is, why isn’t anyone else? Or from a future perspective, Why didn’t anyone else speak out?
Is the world mostly sheep? Is SL a microcosm of sheep scattered with a few who see the problem but can’t get the others to tow a line? Is it really the way the system is setup? Do what we (Linden Lab) want, because you are locked in and too attached to your avatar to give up that extension into virtual reality?
I think there’s money involved too, a source that even as the spigot slowly turns closed, people will try to eek everything they can from. And then there are those who do not care at all.
I care. I cared so much. I vowed to defend the grid in my off times from those who would attack and disrupt it. As Sally Jupiter said in Watchmen, “I was a hero goddamit!”. But now… I see things on the grid more like the Question… the more Linden Lab push their crazy rules and changes on those like me that don’t want them, the more I disassociate from that world and am simultaneous drawn to figure out why.. there’s justice in the why.
But here’s the worst part. In that world, we have no means. No method to fight back against oppression. No matter what we do, as long as we participate in Second Life, as long as we are on their blogs and their forums, buying Lindens, no matter what we do… Linden Lab wins. They have all the controls, all the doors, all the keys.
Except, there is one way we could make Linden Lab listen. Take the plunge. Disconnect. Pull our accounts, refuse to give them another dime… All of us. Heck 50 percent. Close down, pay nothing, buy nothing until they come to the table, put in a governing council with elections for residents, and agree in writing to listen to them and run changes by the electorate FIRST when it comes to major changes in the society that is SL.
I’ve said it time and again that we need government in SL with resident involvement and very few people ever listen. They think its impossible. And because they think its impossible, that it could never happen, no one even tries. Its pathetic… because no seems to be able to get mad enough to cut the cord.
Its taken me a while. I’ve grown attached to my virtual self, my virtual expression, She is me, I am her. But the two of us had a pow wow and avatar and I sorted the variables and have come to our conclusion. It makes me sick to exist in a world where I have no say in its structure. And She has no desire to exist there either. I am safe behind my keyboard, my extension exists on their servers. The only way I can get her out, is to stop logging in. I wish I could take her with me. But for now, she’ll have to exist in limbo or as a shade, walking the world in sadness, tethered to me watching the fall of all the residents freedoms til the end, it doesn’t seem fair to her or me.
Seems a little meta there. We’re not two people, my avatar is my extension, I have inhabited and provided life, my face to the world inside, and it saddens me no end to be losing that face, that extensible self, as if losing a limb. Which is why I find it so hard to cancel her account. I want her to live. But I want her and myself and all of you and yours to be free there.. the only option that will have an impact is if we all follow suit and disconnect our financials to linden lab and make a demand, enmasse together to them for representation. Not in SL, but in RL and they will only listen when their bank accounts stop filling with our blood sweat and cold hard cash.
So that’s where i am right now and I hope some of you will think this through and come to a decision on what to do. Its only your world, your imagination, if you are free to shape it, imagine and make it yours. And Linden lab has made that eminently impossible from the inside. Its time we came at the problem from the world that they can’t control, the real one.
Thank You.
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Tags: council, freedom, government, in-world, Linden Lab, main grid, mmorpg, representation, residents, rights, Second Life, Teen Grid, truth to power, virtual world